Keaton Michael Kelsall

Thank you to everyone who stops by and lights a candle. The site is playing up and does not always tell me straight away that I have things waiting to be approved so I am sorry if it takes a while but I will get to them eventually.

Another year is about to pass by and be marked with my little mans 5th birthday. No words I put here can explain my feelings, nothing can match the hurt and the pride I feel at the mention of his name. I want everyone to remember how special he was and always will be to me. Some of you never got to meet him, some knew him for a short time, I carried my son for 40 weeks, bathed and nursed him for over six weeks but I will love and miss him for eternity.

Sweet dreams my big boy xxxxx

I have changed the theme on your site as you are a big boy now. I wish with all my heart you were here so I could watch you grow and shower you with all the love I have for you.

As we approach the start of 2009 my heart is heavy thinking this is my 4th year without you. We are nearing your 4th birthday and I wonder what you would of been like as a little boy, instead you will remain my forever baby. xxxxx

This site has been created in ever loving memory of my sweet baby boy Keaton who died aged 6weeks and four days old of SIDS. He was the most adorable little boy loved by his mommy, daddy, big sister and all of his family.

This is our story...

Keaton was born a healthy baby boy to a loving mom, dad and sister who all adored him. He was exclusively breastfed and in the words of our Health Visitor (HV) ‘continued to thrive’. He was gaining weight at a tremendous rate and in one week he put on 1lb 1oz! He certainly enjoyed his feeds. The day before Keaton died I had taken him to the GP as he had started to vomit following his feeds. The GP was not concerned and said that he was sure that there was nothing wrong with Keaton but for reassurance due to the vomiting he sent us to be given the all clear at our local Paediatric Assessment Unit (PAU). Here again I was told that there was nothing wrong with our baby and was sent home. The following day there was no improvement so I asked my HV if she would come to take a look at Keaton. While waiting for her to arrive Keaton started to cry in a distressed way and was only comforted when I held him close. His breathing became noisy and as soon as the HV arrived she suggested we go back to the PAU. As soon as we arrived a team started to work on Keaton. He very quickly stopped breathing and shortly after his heart also stopped. Even with a team of experts and all the medical equipment and drugs at hand there was nothing that could save our baby and one of the hardest things to come to terms with is there is no reason why he should of died. His PM showed what I knew and that was that he was a perfectly healthy, perfectly developed baby...........HE SHOULD NOT HAVE DIED!!!!!!!!!!

Keaton
28/02/05 – 15/04/05

My Little Boy

Where has he gone my little boy the one I love so much?
All I really know for sure is that he is far now from my touch
Too far for my hand to stroke his brow or my lips to kiss his cheek
The pain of him not being here gets worse with each day and week
Far from my arms but never from my heart
We were and always will remain as one so we will never part.

Somewhere
I hope that as you are not here that you’re somewhere safe and free
From all the cruel things that this world can sometimes be
In a place of sunshine with lots of girls and boys
Where you are cared for and shown all the worldly loving joys
My angel I feel cheated that I never got much chance to show
How much I love and wanted you but my heart believes that you know.


When.........
When I think there can be no more tears, there are
When I think the pain cannot hurt me more, it does
When I get scared you will fade from my memory, you’re there.

Our Son
With eyes so blue and hair so fair
Everyone will always guess what would have been the colour of your hair
Those eyes those lips with the start of a cheeky smile
We never imagined we would only have you for a little while
Too short a time to show to you all that we wanted you to see
And to see you grow and watch you achieve all that you could be
All we know is that you already were before your life begun
So precious, loved and wanted because you were our son.